Frozen in Time

Sitting seems to bring me nothing so I start to twirl and spin while thinking about what to do.  My body?  It does nothing, a fossil frozen in time.  As I circle faster and faster I feel my body becoming a whirling dervish, minus the sacred chants.  The lights flitter and flutter around and around slowly at first, then fast as can be.  My eyes roam back and forth back and forth trying to stay focused on an object in the distance.  Its very small and very dark.  My mysterious thing bobs through the lights coming towards me.  I think.  Yes!  It is coming to me, is this me waking up?

Taking a deep breath I open my eyes.  The darkness is starting to glow showing that the time has passed more quickly than I thought.  Wiggling and flexing my toes, and leg muscles and arms and fingers I realize I'm back in my body.  It was only a dream...a horrible one at that. 

Getting ready for the day I wonder why I would have frozen on stage?  Do I really get stage fright?  I am constantly in a spot light...well sort of.  People know who I am, and ask me to do lots of things for them.  Sometimes I feel like a slave, the general laborer gofer.  Popping over there for food for the little one, digging over here for toys to play with the older one, scrambling this way and that trying to find the phone that's blaring the man's ring.  Who wouldn't think about slavery every once in a while?

I'm the mom whose children scream and cry very LOUDLY at any store because they want their own way, and make it very hard to get to that alleged highway option.  I'm the wife who forgets to put away the sour cream after dinner, and find it the next morning on the counter where I left it.  I'm the customer who is rarely satisfied and so complains very LOUDLY when I don't get my way, I don't understand what the Rep on the phone is saying because of the language barrier, and static.  I'm the person who chases after real spot lights trying to avoid the spot lights that find me unprepared. 

 I am the person who's looking for fame fortune and glory!